A goodbye letter

7.39 am - 19th Oct'18

It didn't reach you in time...

Because I didn't want to lose you, I lost myself in the process.
I became a girl who kept being mistreated and formed a habit of saying
"I'm used to it".
I became a girl who kept being unappreciated and began to tell myself 
"It's okay".
I became a girl who kept being undervalued and learned how to say
"I'm fine"
I became a girl who kept being last and naturally reacted with
"It's whatever"
I became a girl who kept being taken for granted and dealt with it by repeating
"Everything's okay".
I became a girl who kept being unhappy and regularly told people
"I'm gonna be fine".

I realize that..
No guy is worth losing myself for,
No guy is worth suffering for at the expense of my happiness, and
No guy is worth tormenting myself for the sake of making him happy.
At this point, perhaps losing you is the only way
I'd be able to get myself back because as much as
I wouldn't want this to be true,
You're the only thing that's in my way of finding myself, and
You're the only reason I've lost myself for so long.

Thank's for everything Z.